It's my life

Weee Today was e performance! Wooo nice! i was so excited a few while ago! It reminded of e time when i performed back in spore.. lol.. missed those times. Anyway, it was a cultural festival and many ppl from variety of countries performed on e stage; but i must confess, that the singers are 'very good'... yeah VERY GOOD! Each note they made will either go flat or sharp. Ugh... make my ear pain. I think e best was one of e opera singer. She was excellent.. almost broke my fren's specs lol....
Well, i dunno bout me coz i duno how to judge myself.
it was kinda fun hehe...
i still love e song so much! Io ci saro! According to my french proffesor's friend (who is a italian teacher) , it means "I will be there"
hmmm interesting. Romantic
hey there were not only songs! there were also ppl dancing diff type of cultures.... including french, german, italian, spanish, mexican, russian, african, etc etc. not bad huh?

I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live........

I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind

I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star

15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

Half time goes by
Suddenly you're wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...

I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you're on your way
Every day's a new day...

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

Five for fighting


This song is nice
got it from andy. Thanx my pal! ^.^

I recommend u guys to dl it. Oh well, this is my type of music. So i duno if u guys like it. But what the song is trying to say is: our life's short. We have very little time to enjoy. 15 years is the only age when u really enjoy e most; the optimum; the maxium, or wateva u wanna call it.

Let's say we were to live for 100 years... imagine when u r 99. U'll feel that u r going to leave everyone. Everyone that u loved. Man... i dun wanna live tat long.... i dun wanna miss too many ppl. I've made many gd frens and i dun wanna lose it.
Once a fren sent me....

"many years from now... when we grow old... no longer cute... no teeth and use walking stick... no more wetting e bed... but if sms is stil in trend.... dun forget to sms me gdnite..."

Then i really got into a 'trance' mood, as in, i really thought about it... what if one day u r old, and u see a lot of ppl leaving u... and u kp thinking... when is ur time to visit them those who u love in heaven. man life is hard. Now i dun feel like growing old.... i wan to stay as what i am, but of course, that's impossible.

i really wish i will go before my frens.. i cant stand to keep leaving those hu i care. Hu i cherished. Hu i adored. who i really.... love.
Then this question comes up: what's e meaning of life? Is it tat u live jus to see people coming and leaving, which makes u in agony? Or God gave u a test, to where u r going, either heaven or hell? Or wat?
I do really wish i dun exist... i wish i can be just... nothing. so i wont have to feel bad anymore. sure, feeling happy makes u very good, but... it's rather rarer compared to sorrow.

Yay! tmr gonna be my final day before spring vacation! kinky!!
And in spring break im going canada! Yayy! I'm coming Vancouver! Btw in Canada they do speak french, so perhaps i can practise a little there muahahahh
Now it's 2 am in California.... erm... ya kinda late, but i wan to update my blog.. coz i've left it for quite a long time ugh!
Life in America from last Dec till now:
SUCK LIKE HELL!! ÇA CRAINT!!!!
nvm
i tell next time
i wan slp!!
je voudrais dormir maintenant.. (i am going to slp now)
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Yay! I'm back to e sickening USA!
Canada was not bad. It was quite nice
we went out... with my sis's fren. Was quite a blast....gotta admit tat! My sis fren name is vic... Victoria to be precise. Her bf is a funny guy... heheeh... alwasy act goofy. But overall a nice guy.
Vic herself is oso nice ^.^
my sis is not nice
she sux
shes fat
shes ugly
shes.... oh well, shes stil my sis
anyway. its gd to be back.. coz i miss my computer
anyway
im busy wif my computer nwo
bon voyage muaahahah

At times, i do regret being an Indonesian....

my brother's visa application was rejected coz he's an indonesian... wtf man... is this fair? a chinese get rejected in visa application. he has no choice but to stay in america and he can't leave. Once he leave he is not allowed to come back.
it's not like we chinese indonesian wan to get into trouble in US... tat sux!! Damnit, we r already discriminated in indonesia by e malays and now we r not even recoqnised as chinese by the outsiders.
wtf is wrong with this world????
i noe its gd thing that my visa stays for 5 years... hope things will get better and i will be able to renew visa once it's expired.

Now i really hate Indonesia!!!
But first person to be blamed is that blastered Osama.... that black bastard fuker really pissed me!! Coz of him ppl now think that Islamic ppl /Muslims are bad....
i really wan to change my nationality to others... really!! i get sick of indonesia!! e politics sux!! we e minorities r not favoured!! i'll really do it sumday. Change to singaporen! tast e besT! :D
but i guess its kinda hard... esp when im now in america... not in singapore.

2nd thing to be blamed is Indonesia herself. She sux to hell!! already they suffered from economy crisis, and then they still wanted to threaten US to war if they attack Iraq... wtf man.. are they brainless? Wtf is wrong with those fukin muslims in indonesia?!
The muslims in singapore and in indo r so diff... i can even have a best malay fren in singapore but i cant in indonesia. fuk em in e mind!

3rd thing: my mom! because she gave birth to me in indonesia!
hehehe actualyl not her fault... but still.. i regret bcoming indonesian man... when will God be fair to us all... think of those who are in Iraq itself... e ppl r being discriminated ... or the jews who were killed in WW2.... or the indians who kept being 'stereotyped' out of the community in singapore......why are there so many races in this world???? Why did God create multi racial human?? it would have been better with no multi races... one is enough.
what's e use???

damnit what can i do except sitting in front of computer typing every of these word and feel e pain by myself, for being a pathetic indonesian? damnit.. sumtimes i really feel like killing myself.

It's curently late at night... 3.45am to be precise... i jus wan to write an entry to talk bout my days here....
these few days... they have been quite OK...
but still... there is no social lfie here
oh well.. God punished me for leaving my frens by making me into this absolute solitude
ugh... what agony... ugh... pain

but.... tahnx to this blog and friendster, i got to know a few new ppl around to talk to
Sara, tat Maksim freak, for instance, likes to talk junk wif me hahaah... i didnt msg her and she msg me :D tahnx girl! At least u entertained me for a while! Se non amore!

dude! last few days... in friendster... i got to know tis new girl..a mixed race of german and chinese. I gotta admit, she's pretty. hahaha.. hey dun think of what im going to do. she's juz a fren man.
currently she's in spore, in a private sch... oh well, shes a friendly girl i tell ya she approached me in friendster coz of e gunbound lol... she played e game too!
oh well, tahnx girl for filling a little of ur time talking wif me... i appreciate it.
Man... now i find that MSN is e only way i talk to ppl... man... tats bad... i cant even to real life person
bah... wat life is this man... i keep staying home and hav nobody to do activity wif... argh! i dun like doing stuff wif my sis... or bro, who is even worse than her. ugh... he's stupid i tell ya...

enough bout tat.... ill stop for now c u dude... ciao!