It's my life

geee... i really have forgotten totally about tabulas... coz i have lots of things in my mind. I've been quite busy with projets and tests.
but still, the phase of studying here, i must admit, is much easier. weeeee
damnit im so homesick (again).
damnit there's little social life here
e people here discriminates a lot
hamblah.. anyway, last few weeks nothing much happen.. yep
its alwasy as boring as ever. It has never been very positive staying here.
hey, my french class has really made me able to speak french! its fun learning french! je pense que le francais est plutot interessant et un peu facile
it was my best friend Andy's birthday on 25th of Feb. Anniversaire heureux! ("happy birthday!" in french) I sent him a greeting and he replied:
"ayah, u still remember my bidrthday ah. so gd meh? Whyen u coming back ah?"
oh boy, look at those 'ah, ayah,meh' long time since i've heard those.
hmm wat else i need to update?
hmmmmmm.....
i think tats all for now.
ok i gtg
au revoir, le con!

why do i write today? coz inoticed sumthing in e morning. its warmer than ever. usually in the morning of decembers, januaries and februaries are cold, but this one seem warm. Boy this is saying one thing: summer's gonna be here soon!! no more wearing double layer eskimo clothes!! no more sweater or wool clothings!! YAY!
this also reminds me of sumthing:singapore! (again)
i miss the weatehr there: e hot day wih so much sweat hehehe..
man the temperature here now is approxiamtely 95 fahrenheit... or it's 35 degree in celsius. How to convert?
(temp in Fahrenheit)= [(9/5)*(temperature in celsius)]+32
yep thats e conversion!
kinda warmer than ever. oh yeah baby finally time to sunbath (LOL)
its long since e last time i had hot weather
oooo its hot! its warm! sweating like hell. in summer wil be even worse, and tmeperature might rise to 105.8 F, or 41 C. gonan be hot like hell.

oh yeah by the way, im going to hav 2 performances soon. one in march and one in april. e one in march is choir concert. oh boy... the choir here is soooo much grander and better than singapore's (lol, no offence singapore haha)
the expectation is also much higher heheh....
on teh april, im going to have my solo! im gonna sing 'Io ci Saro' by "Neri per caso", the 6- male- acapella-singers. Of course, ill be only singing e leading part. the rest r performed by italian people. oh yeah baby! its actually a cultural performance by the 'facultés les langues' (language faculty in french), consisting of french/français ( im in french culture but performing italian song, disgrace huh? ), german/deutsch, italian/italiano (in which im doing it), spanish/el español, chinese/汉语, japanese/(no script), russian (no script).
ok i think tats all im gonna sya. gd bye for now ^^

ahh... finally a warm night! after so long wearing double layers in my house, finally i can now wear only a singlet and a simple short with underwear in it.
enjoying music and trying to visualize that im still in singapore. the actual place ill be sitting in singapore at this time (its night here at 1.03 am), in front of the computer chatting, or playing and socialzing with those strange accent 'la', 'loh', 'mah', 'meh'.
OOHHHH the agony! wait theres sumthing under my butt
oh its a stupid needle that my sis used to sew her pants juz now (wat junk)
ok restart
OOOHHH the agony! pain of missing singapore. pain of missing my friends! AARRGGHH!!
damnit i must really go back this summer
im getting worse each day i dun go back. Hambla hamama....

now listening to e song im gonna perform here's e lyrics:

Io Ci saro

Sara' un solo una fantasia
ma tu m'hai regalato un sogno
sara' un gioco o sara' follia
un po' di luce en questo buio
non e' solo un' immagine
non e' solo un' illusione
se ci penso capisco che
non riesco a fingere con te
tu mi hai toccato l'anima

io ci provero'
ad entrare nel tuo mondo
non sara' una cosa facile
ma di certo non mi arrendo
sapro' darti un' emozione
sara' tuo quello che ho
e dovunque tu sarai io ci saro'

la mia notte si illumina
quando ti vedo camminare
con quell' aria un po' timida
mi guardi e poi mi fai morire
non e solo un' immagine
non e solo un' illusione
se ci penso capisco che
non riesco a fingere con te
tu m'hai toccato l' anima

io ci provero
ad entrare nel tuo mondo
non sara' una cosa facile
ma di certo non mi arrendo
sapro' darti un' emezione
sara' tuo quello che ho
e dovunque tu sarai io ci saro'

hai che serbe fingere
non mi fermero'
sapro' darti un' emozione
sara' tuo quello che ho
e dovunque tu sarai io ci saro'
sapro' darti un' emozione
sara' tuo quello che ho
e dovunque tu sarai io ci saro'

translation?
i dunno

i dun learn italian lol...
i only took french. ca va?

practising my song the one im going to perform.
my throat very pain.
argh
help!
my butt is still in pain because of the stupid needle. F$%# that thing!!!
boy it's already hot here! perhaps someday i'll go to suntan a while. HEhehe... but too much not good
<-- later i become so black like this
how i wish i have an italian who can translation the song for me. "Io Ci saro" is fantabulous!!!
The one I'm listening to now, "Se non Amero" is great too...
perhaps I should spread this group singers to the whole world

Damn it! Today I'm late again for my english class!! Argh!! Second time I'm late... i think i must stop sleeping at 3 am everyday and start to sleep at least at 1a.m. Class is at 10 am and i need to wake up at 9.
DAmnit!! I'm goign to bed early next time!! ARGGH!! no more games or TVs!!!
Oh btw, finally i got Shirlyn's photo :D yay

Weee!! Time to conquer the world! I'm controlling the magnificient France (or Gaulic tribe called "Parii" who settled in present day's Paris) and I'm ready to eliminate the arrogant americans! (kidding), the exterminate the pathetic China! Destroy the f$%#@ing Aztecs! Kill the b*tchy Cleopatra of Egpyt! Terminate the stupid kings and jokers/jesters of England in middle ages! hehehe
Hey Civ 3 is fun! Oh lala :D
Recreate the history! Eliminate those who were suckers and retards! For instance: China, America, England. These civilization has changed the world too much! Time for punishment!

I'm kinda bored here damn WAT TO DO! Shirlyn went to malay wedding? wat malay wedding?? She's not a malay!! Oh well..
Anyway today's nothing much happened. Hmm.. played Civ3 whole day long and talked to Shafiq the bapok a while. Saw Shirlyn but she left in only less than 1 minute. Wat the heck.. lol..
anyway hav fun :D
Holy hambla hamama! finally shaf updated his tabulas blog! Damnit! (go www.tabulas.com/~skitmarc to see his blog)
He's slow. He's too gay. He's a crazy nerd. He's nuts. He's... wateva.. but he's muh best brudda! Yo! If u r reading this, mon, I'm only kidding!
then went to buy food.. eat.. play gb.. work out a while... then back to my comp. Oh my computer, i love u so much (hey i'm not a computer-human sexual!) thanx to u i can talk to my frens!! Man i missed em sooooo much!!!!!! I really wanna go back to S'pore!!! Once I'm of enough education, I'll apply for PR status in Singapore and have my faimly there on that little sunny island ^_^

Damnit, why does life have to be so hard? Each day you get older, the more worried you get, the more responsibilities you hold, and the more troubles you have. Like what most kids say: "I don't wanna grow up!" Well, but they have to.
Now i really miss the old time... It's so nice back long ago... when your mom handled everything, and you have very little thing to worry (of course, except your studies). But now as an adult-teen, I have more things to do... I no longer hav much fun... especially when I'm stranded in this big continent, where I know nobody
In primary school, I don't really enjoy the life... coz i had a few bad happenings... like being bullied by gangsteres... lol.. oh well its over. But still, I really missed those old times.
The most fun time back in secondary school.... when i really enjoyed my life there, even though i had a few troubles here and there. Those old fren of mine.. just gone like tat. There's a guy in my class, who really helped me a lot. I think without him.. I won't even have chance to get 14 points for my o level... Man I think i really feel guilty coz i dun really care bout him much. I regret it sooooo much.
Now he's in Meridianne JC.. (is that how u spell it? )
But he's suffering from a temporary 'stress syndrome'.... well that happened to him when he was in secondary schooll... complicated story... but he has weak mind.. but works hard. If he doesnt get the result he expect, he'll get this syndrome.
I did try to say goodbye to him in the airport by calling him, but his mom said ,"How nice of u to call but he wont reply to any call or anything... he just stay in the room all day long daily. But I ll tell him that u called once he recover... sorry about it. Keep in touch ok?"
Well.... u can do nothing, ya?

Frankly to say, e day when i left singapore.. especially when i think back how fun it was to be with my fren.... i was so sad. Almost cried.. (booo... a male teen cry!!)
how i wish i didnt make this stupid decision of leaving singapore... if only i have e power to go back time... if only i can reform wat i am.. if only im invisible... if only... ARgh!!

I still keep the photo that i shot on e last day in singapore...
Andy, Zhao liang, Dudley, Kim hong, Shafiq and Songyu....
well Richard, CG, Eugene did try to come but.. oh well didnt make it in time i guess....

Well, still, i would like to thank all of you to take all those troubles to come... and made my last day in singapore a memorable one..... though in a bitter way. i really treasure friendship more than anything else... to me, i think friendship is no.1

Now it's gone with the wind... just like tat.. in just a blink..... all gone.. kaput...

Today it seems brighter... somehow! I duno why though. It seems that every person that i met waved hello to me then during choir a lot of ppl talk to me... kinda
though i kept quiet they keep trying to to entertain me... well, whatever it is they r doing, i appreciate it for cheering it a bit lol...
anyway, today i woke up a bit earlier than usual. Saw Gideon and tehn he msg me... lol....
joseph also msg me in friendster... lol... funny thing

Damnit... I'm really extremely bored here... I got nothing else to play!! Everything's been played over and over again... too many times!! BORED!! BORED!!! HELP!!!! SOMEBODY HELP ME!!!
damnit my head feel like exploding...ugh !! sumbody! Tell me to do sumthing! Help! Fast!! URGH!!!

Man. it's been long since the last time i felt this way
The last time i experienced this feeling was back a year ago when i was still in sec 3.....
i was first saved when i went to church alone... i duno why. It's juz tat... God juz called me to go. I really have no intention of doing it actually.... so... one day i juz woke up early, 8 am on saturday morning, and it's just... POOF! and i juz... walk to the church in Hyatt hotel that us held every weekend.
My first day was ok... doenst make any impression... but the 2nd time im in church, a lot of things happened. Friends keep coming into my life. My life seems brighter, so much better than before. Before im into Christ I was just a mere lonely bastard who had some attitude problem.
Ever since I'm saved by God, my life changed, utterly. I really enjoyed my life. Everything's great.... just great!!!!
But somehow a year or so later my spirit seems to be burning only liek an ember... no more of that fire that keep lighting so bright....
something made me keep going far away from going church.
I duno what is it, I cant explain.
then one day.. i just stopped going church.
Though taht happened, my life seems becoming better... as in, i really enjoy for what i am now, for what He has given me; friends, a change of heart, teachings..... a lot more.
But this good life didnt really last long.... it ends when i moved to USA.... which is now!
And today, i realised that i've been abandoning him for too long. He gave me everything, and i gave him back nothing. True, that i belief in Him, so strongly, but.... i've never go to service for sooooo long.
Well, i duno how but probably ill find a way to get into service here....
I even know how to say God in various language
English- God
Spanish- El dios
French- Dieu
German- Gott
Italian- Dio
Dutch- De God
Portuguese- Deus
Latin- Deus
Russian- Бог (Gos)
Norwegian- Gud
Chinese- 上帝
Indonesian- Allah
Arabic- Allah
Catalan- Déu
Celtic- Dhia
Czech- Pane
Ancient Egyptian- Amun
Greek- Mou
Gujarati- Bhaghwan
Hebrew- Ellohim
Hindi- Bhagwaan
Hungarian- Istenem
Icelandic- Gud
Irish- Dhia
Japanese- Kamisama
Korean- OtchOna
Polish- Boze
Tagalog/ Phillipine- Dios


The rest i dunno lol... But oh well, hope no insult to those i didnt mention O_o
OK im tired! Wanna sleep!! May God bless you all!!!!

This night is never different from other night. It's always this dark, gloomy, unpredictable mood time of the day. It has never changed, since when I was in Singapore 'till now. Its desolating aura always made us either in happy sad mood. It's like it has his own semblance...
Bliss comes when you are with somebody who you love, you care, you like, you cherish, et cetera....
Somber moment comes when you are surrounded by nothing than a mere solitude, loneliness, agony, pain, fear and sadness.

Night is always most songs' icon. Night is related to romance. Night is the time I made love. Night was the time when i met her. In the night, moon showed up to show us the brilliant light reflected from the great sun of the celestial universe. It shows us how beautiful the world can be, with its little magical touch of 'reflection' concept.

Surveys were given to approximately 100,000 people, and about 76% indicates that night is the best time for them fr various reasons. Some says they feel best at night. Some says they love the moon. Some says they have most of their favourite shows at night. Whatever. Talk cock!

Well, why am I saying this? I dunno. It's just that I got nothing to do..... so... c u all soon ppl!

PS: I noticed that Lyn's pop has 'strict' face lol..

Life, it's so short... u can merely go through your fun for such short time.... Yea, school is such a drip; it gives u so much pressure.. but think about it. Think bout what u really gained. Friendship. Love. Education. Through school, you can feel lonely no more. You feel happy coz someone was there beside u

Think back. In primary school, who was always wif u, play wif u , contact u, got scolded by teacher together , work hard together? Well... who else other than friends.

But humans tend not to be thankful, except for sum ppl who appreciate the meaning of 'friendship'. They forget easily except for those who r really very close to him/her. Perhaps.. I'm one of those who appreciate friendship... i tihnk i adore it more than love or anything else... i duno. Oh well, it's all good