It's my life

yeehhaa! smile? yes smile! i had my internet already! i can use my emoticons, my email privacy system, my msn, my blablabla! yyyahooo!! man so long nvr update liao.. coz not tat i no time but... sumhow tis thing getting boring each day
but, i will still fill up wateva special thing happen
oh btw, happy new year 2004! erm.. actually tis year not quite gd.. in fact tis is e most boring new year ever... though i went disneyland to celebrate, and ive seen e massive crowd, i feell.... lonely. bah.. my bro... he nvr talks seriously. i never like him really much. I'm close to sis but she's in Spore for holiday now. Wish i'm there to se my frens. but oh well, come what may. i will still love u ppl from s'pore till my dying day ^_ ^ ehehhe
ermm.. i got my new camera which is cool! i can upload those pic to my comp... and put it up in sum places hehehe... i lvoe my camera man!
my 2003 summary:
jan2003: entry to NYJC
feb 2003: arrival of WC3 game in my mind, which makes my study
suffers
april 2003: got posted into CJC for a while, then posted back to NYJC
after appeal coz i miss my fren.
june 2003: e 1st mind came up on moving to overseas.
august2003: my bday month, went to US embassy to make e visa
and was already feeling sumthing gonna go wrong.
october2003: stop sch
november- december 2003: in korea for holiday
5-7dec 2003: e agony moment. e day when i really cried out (WOOT)
late dec2003: miss all my frens. still thinking bout em. and didnt hav
a gd celebration. e most boring one

oh lala.... finally tomorrow's e 1st day of sch! cant wait to make new frens ^_^
but my 1st lesson is at 1.30 pm... then followed by maths at7 pm nite.
ya e schedule is kinda funny ya? ahaah... it jumps around.
anyway, i've not been updating tabulas so often.. coz im quite lazy
i still miss everybody as usual... and its kinda hard to leave s'pore.
i know tat spore has started their education.. and already my bes pal andy has his test today. wow... jc's tough i tell ya....
anyway, yesterday nite i saw all my gd frens online. Shafiq was there as usual, Calvin was online... strangely :S..... and Andy too! oh i miss him sooo much feel like kissing him! (note: i am not a gay!) Hey i forgot to mention tat actually Shirlyn went online too but.... she didnt reply my message. wat the heck happened? man... i msg her for 7 times she didnt ans... and she juz left... and.. kaput!

my gunbound has been progressing fast dude! i played well! now i got my chief hair and golden armor! muahahaah!! now getting pet... so still hav to play for quite long O_O
for those hu play gb, pls do add me! nick: magkocak

hmm... wat else... oh ya.. tis is beggining of spring... which is good coz winter is too cold for me! im allergic to cold :S

bah i gotta go now.... feel like sleeping... zzz....
ok cya soon and ill updte more soon
arriverdeci dude!

ok, today i went to a theme park called six flags mountain magic. tell u wat... its e most thrilling theme park in e world!! e rides r vvvveerryyy scary and most of em consist of 360 turn!!! wooooo!!
my first ride was e scariest of all!! i almost puke after e ride (LOL)
after tat e ret of the rides r much 'better'. but e best to me is e one on sliding down from e highest point in e theme park..... wooo!! i love slidingn down, esp when u let ur hands up and let it FLY!
bah.. i promise after tis im not going for a 360 turn ride... (LOL) but i must admit, its nice though, but not after meal.....
anyway, e days here r ok... doesnt really change much.... classes r very relaxing... and my sch tmr starts at 10 am morning... nice rite? ^_^ till 3.pm.... then followed by french class at 7 pm... (stupid schedule) till 9 pm.
started to feel giddy now... still feeling e 'flying' moment. oh man.. now i realise im scared of height (i think) LOL
ok wan slp now.... its 12.34 am nite here.... bybye sleeeeeeppp
zzzzzZZZZZzzzzzZZZZ

This is my life
This life really sux
I really hope i can have 3 wishes
1st wish: I wish to be with my friends forever.....
friendship is part of most important thing in my life
2nd wish: I wish I am really 'normal' instead of becoming like
this... I have to act normal in public... it's hard
3rd wish: I really wish that I can inverse the time. I want to go back
to my past.... to get back what I've lost and I want to
mend what has been wrong.

I dun wish for power
I dun wish for money
I am who I am...
I have to accept for who I am....
Yet it's hard to be me

Yesterday fought with Shirlyn... dunno what the heck happened to her.... she juz scold me for nothing... saying dun wanna talk to me... wat junk... and today she sent me a msg not mentioning wat happened yesterday.
Bah... I just dun understand girls...

Just got something about you' by Five for fighting from Andy... ncie song pal! I love it! Oh yeah baby!
Saw 2 of my best fren online yesterday...
kinda glad to see em again
Man those 2 are as great as ever... how I hope I have their life (hehe) Their life is so much better than having my stupid life. It sux like hell. Sumtimes i really think... where is God when i really need Him?
I've done something against his teaching... but I'm really trying to change it..... I really don't like what i'm doing myself... but I am still me! It's unnatural for me to change. How can you change your genes? I only found out about it when I was in sec 4.... and start realsing that what I've done is very wrong... but i cant change it... How do you modify a gene??????

Today everything's ok.... normal... notihng much.. nothing bad... nothing good...
learnt lotsa thing from french class
hey french's fun! XD though pronounciation is very hard
boooo!!

anyway, made a new fren with one angmoh... hope hes an ok fren
hayah not close yet la... duno le... v hard to talk to caucasian :S
Got to know him from MUS31 class... he really loves chinese language.. haha.. wish i can teach him but i'm not chinese educated... sad!! see? i hav hard life.. i'm chinese yet i duno chinese... wat rubbish is this...
seeing all my fren already at can read and write chinese so fluently... i think im e only chinese who is illiterate in chinese... sad... sad... sad... sad... sad....
i feel like jumping down AARRGGHHH!! why must life be like this???
sad.. sad sad.....

everything's as per normal today... woke up at about 11.42 am and start doing e usual morning stuff.... bath... eat... blabla...
after that went to bank to cre8 account for myself.. but sadly im not old enough yet lol... im only 17 and u need to be 18 to cre8 one. Lmao... tats lame.
anyway after going home from bank with kaput result, went straight away to e comp and do my stuff. Met Shafiq. Talked to him for quite sumtimes then play my gunbound.... wee funn!!
Then get bored for a while... then go back to my msn and talk back to shafiq.. and then his fren was there... erh wats his name again? ... erh... Kennth! ya! kenneth! (duno who is he)
he decided to leave me alone and go play XBOX wif his new fren XD
he's a bad fren ya?
then met Andy... aahaha.. as funny as ever... gimme e stupid talk then say bye... lmao... oh btw he left a note bfore he's gone. He showed me his new blog
http://andyprak.blogspot.com/

hmm.. looks like he really did hav a bad day. hahahaha.....

oh
guess wat...
i played my gunbound again...
and decided to put under 'random' mode
and u know wat? strange things happen
we played tag game... and..
i got both knight and dragons!! LOL
i was sooo damn lucky!!
sooo happyyy!! ahahahahah i did print screen... hahaha...
anyway, i'll stop for a while.... wan go play wc3... bb ppl

oh 1 more thing
Shilrlyn, if u reading this
i wanna say I'm sorry
im really very sorry
my damn cousin was there
i...
argh..
i think its misunderstanding
im really so very sorry....
T'iamo, donne

OK, today my gramps and grandma gone home, leaving us all here. Now we've gotta live independently (hope i can)....
and must try to study harder than my previous education in jc.
Yeah... probably at times i always quarrel with em and disagree with em... but actually i still love em all. Esp my gramps... he really outdid himself... i pity him for being scolded by me everytime.
Now i'm really home-sick
i wan go back to where i came from!! cant stand it here. Too gila.... e ppl here very arrogant.
hmm.. prob i wan to list sum stuff bout me...

List of things i really want to do before i die:
-To hug and kiss every of my fren (hahaha die u bastards!)
-To learn at least 3 other languages other than English,
Indonesian/Malay, Chinese, or hokkien.
- To perform a song to the world dedicated to all my friends and
those who i love

what i like:
play games, examining cells (though i still don't have microscope and hoping to get one), Playing Computer Chess (if u get what i mean), food, going out with frens.... etc etc etc

Things i like to say:
- Samparakumiabarahut
- Bush
- WTF
- WTH
- Nyeeeee...!
- Siao ca bo
- Bapok

List of close frens.....
Shafiq (Rahman), Andy (Pra), Shirlyn (Sam), Richard (lee), (Ng?*)Choon goan, Russell (Bonavath?), (Tay) Zhao liang, Ahmad (Iskandar), Daena (?), Clarence (?), Eugene (Ng), Calvin (Sulestio), Ivan (Sulestio), Joanna (Chang), Amanda (Lin?), Marcus (Ong), Wangki (Sui), Darien (Lee), Adam (Wham), Jordan (Lim/Quek), (Teo) Qing Xiang, (Lim) Jun Kai, Harmony (Huang), (Kel) Songyu, Sunario (?), etc etc....
E rest forgot.. heheh.. sorry for those hu i did not mention.. juz tat ur name is not in my mind now...
PS: * means surname unsure... sorry! so close to u guys yet nvr heard of ur surname! aahahah... so sorry man!

Things i want to be in e future... (my dream job!)
- Star (of course tis is impossible.. its juz a dream anyway)
- Scientist (Hm.. I wonder what does this do?)
- Doctor (sterelise stupid ppl!)
- Astronomist (Look! it's a bird! It's a star! It's a.... a.... i dunno)
- Teacher (1+1=2 look how smart am I!)
- President (OK, die you worthless peasant!)
- Architect (Does my building structure look like Pisa?)
- Designer (OK, this week u girls wear nothing for fashion)
- Hairstylist (Erh... sir... your hair is burning...)

Fav types of song:
a dash of classic, a v. little pinch of rock, 2 tablespoons of new age and pop.

Hm... that's what i can think of for now... perhaps when i think more of em... i can write more... hehehe....
e pic below describes my feeling now.. rather peaceful and a bit 'disturbed' by e feeling of homesick
well, i wan play my game now... see u again!